New Hiking Shoes!

I bought myself some new hiking shoes today. They are called Merrell Moab Ventilators. I feel like a little kid that just got a new toy. I can hardly wait for Saturday to come so I can try them out on a hike. They fit wonderfully and are light weight but have good foot support. I'll be hiking with L on Saturday at Nissene Marks near Santa Cruz. Then on Sunday I'll be on the GLS hike at Windy Hill. Woo Hoo. I love to hike and I love my new hiking shoes.

Getting in shape

So I'm slowly getting in better shape this year. I started going to Gold's Gym about four or five weeks ago on week days after work and climbing on the aerobic machines for about 45 minutes. I do different machines although lately I mostly go on the Precor elliptical machine. It has a nice smooth feel and doesn't stress my achilles tendons. I do like the ordinary treadmill but it does tend to stress my achilles tendons. The stationary bike is my least favorite but it does the best job on not stressing the tendons. I'm still recovering from a bout of achilles tendonitis which is why all this going on about stressing my tendons!

On weekends I prefer to go hiking to get in shape. I have been hiking at Windy Hill, Henry Cowell, Henry Coe, Shoreline Park, and Castle Rock over the last several weekends. This past weekend the hike I had hoped to go on was cancelled due to the rain. So I put on my raincoat and went to Shoreline park and hiked for nearly 2 hours on the paved bike paths. Only a few people were out there braving the cold and rain. I had a good time although walking on pavement was not a good idea for my achilles tendons. They were sore when I got home so I iced them and rested. They feel fine today.

I have lost four pounds since January 1, 2009. I weigh 180 pounds today. I have been recording my weight at fitday.com. According to them I am now only overweight and no longer obese. Hurray. I need to get down to 150 to get out of the overweight category. The exercise is really helping with the weight lose but if I want to lose weight faster I'll need to change my eating habits. I'm giving myself some slack for now on the eating. I don't want to suddenly restrict myself. I want to gradually work into eating more healthy foods and less calories.

Just checking in

Just checking in to my own blog. I'm here. I'm tired. I am looking forward to a nice nap after work.

So tired ...

Breaking up is hard to do and its also exhausting. With so many things on my mind about the break up and C. moving out I have been having trouble sleeping at night and seem to be perpetually tired. Perhaps when C. finally is moved out I will just spend a week going to bed at 8 p.m. and getting oodles of hours of sleep. I feel as if I have this huge sleep deficit to make up. Do you think congress could bail me out and give me some hours of sleep??

All of life seems a little bit on edge these days. C. and I are of course on edge with each other and the break up. Then there is the U.S. financial crisis. That is certainly on the edge. And the presidential election is putting people on edge. A day rarely goes by at work when someone doesn't speak up passionately about some aspect of the presidential race. And the prop 8 stuff has the gay community on edge. I find myself just wanting to bury my head in the sand.

Changes

So ...my life is full of changes at the moment.

I am dissolving my domestic partnership with my significant other. Essentially we are a same sex couple getting a divorce. She will be moving out in a couple of months. Its tough. I won't say much more in this public forum about this other than its a very significant change in my life and worth a mention in my blog.

Another change in my life is that I am beginning to fall into new identity of asexual lesbian. I know to some that seems a contradiction in terms but I have found a small group of like minded folks in an on-line community who understand and identify with the term. I love woman. I love to be around women. I want a serious relationship with a woman. I just don't want to have sex be part of my relationship. I have been posting and reading at the AVEN (Asexual Visibility and Education Network) site lately too. Its a new adventure of sorts. Although I must admit this having to face "coming out" again is a bit tedious. I seem to be more reluctant to come out as asexual than I was to come out as lesbian. Something to explore further.

Something that has not changed ... I'm still struggling with toe fungus, Achilles Tendinitis, and being out of shape, and generally not feeling well physically. It is a bit frustrating as I sorta know what I need to do but I just don't seem to be able to get motivated to do it. I think I just need to take things slow and worry more about not letting things get worse before I worry about making them better.

Body needs repair ...

Long time no blog but after checking out my nephew's Lego Blog I am inspired to write something in my own blog.

My body needs the following repairs:

• reduce cholesterol level in blood
• fix Achilles tendons
  
• get rid of toe nail fungus
• better eye glasses to improve vision
• probably a tooth or two needs filling
  

Last week I went to the foot doctor. He did a ultrasound of my achilles tendons and said that they look structurally OK. Or in other words, no damage from the tendinitis yet. He has told me to not hike this month or walk to work in order to rest the tendon and let it heal. Bike riding is OK as long as I don't stand up on the pedals and stress the tendon. He also has me wearing heal lifts in my shoes. He took samples of the toe nail fungus also and sent it to the lab to find out what kind of fungus it is. He will get the results back towards the end of this month and then he'll let me know what can be done for the fungus.

This week I visited the ophthalmologist and got the happy news that my eye pressure is fine and that my retina is still very much solidly attached (was detached in 1988 and fixed with emergency cryo eye surgery). I do need new glasses as my current pair is not quite the right correction. I ordered them and they will arrive in a week or so.

Soon I'll visit my general doctor about the cholesterol. I have started to cut out fatty foods and high cholesterol foods and have been eating food shown to help reduce cholesterol like flax and oat bran flakes. I did fall off the wagon so to speak this past weekend and had a wonderful juicy fatty hamburger with guacamole at Clark's burgers.

I will see my dentist in late July when she opens her new office. She is taking a break from all but emergency dental treatment until then. My teeth are not hurting but based on my abysmal dental hygiene for the past few months I suspect I have a tooth or two that need filling and some gums that are probably in bad shape. Got to get back to regular brushing and flossing and swishing the fluoride rinse.

I simply have not been caring for myself properly the past several years. I hope I can find the motivation to fix my body and keep it better maintained in the years to come.

Amusing Screen Saver

Watch Hilary bounce around:

http://www.planetdan.net/pics/misc/hillary.htm

Dogs and Squirrel

Sunday the dogs caught a squirrel in the backyard. Charlotte raced out to save the squirrel and yelled at me to come help. I went out and pulled Astro off of the squirrel and was holding him in my arms while Charlotte held Cosmo off of the squirrel. When I looked for where the squirrel ended up, it was climbing up my leg (I had on blue jeans). Eee Gad. Who'd a thought a little old squirrel would give me such a fright. I had to put Astro down so Charlotte could hold him and I could get the squirrel off of me! While I was passing Astro over to Charlotte, the squirrel climbed up to my stomach. After Charlotte got Astro, I flicked the squirrel off of my tummy with my hands. It flew a few feet from me and landed on the ground and headed to the fence and climbed up the fence and got away. It was a young squirrel according to Charlotte and very stunned and frightened. Both Astro and Cosmo had got the squirrel in their mouths according to Charlotte but thankfully there was no blood on either the squirrel or the dogs. We took the dogs inside and blocked their backyard doggy door. They were besides themselves with excitement for the next 30 minutes or so wanting to go back outside. We didn't let them back outside until they had calmed down a little and we were sure there were no squirrels on the ground.

Another Silly Quiz

Your Life is 46% Off Track

Right now, you're taking things one day at a time. Some things are going well, but you can't help but wonder if you're getting the most out of life. It's time for you to slow down and reflect a little. You can change your life - but it's up to you!

Are You Living The Wrong Life?

Root Canal and Antibiotics

The story of my life the last week ... the affects of a root canal and antibiotics. I had a root canal started on Wednesday last week. Part I of the root canal lasted one hour. It was too complex to finish in one sitting so part II was scheduled for Saturday morning. I was sent off with a prescription for Motrin for the pain and an antibiotic to keep infection away. I was grateful for the Motrin. After the Novocaine wore off, there was pain. The Motrin took 10 minutes or so to kick in but worked like a charm once it did kill the pain.

Part II on Saturday was a long 1.5 hour session in the dentist chair. The dentist asked her assistants to take x-rays so she could be sure not to go past the end of my root canal. Well the assistants took about 7 x-rays before they found the right view for the dentist to see where my root ended. Sigh. I was exhausted and glad when it finally ended. I had more pain after the Novocaine wore off yet again. BUT within a day the pain went away and I was able to stop popping Motrin capsules. Hurray! Finally no pain in that tooth. Ever since the dentist drilled the tooth and put a crown on it the tooth it has been hurting.

The antibiotics have been a pain in the butt and the gut. Those nasty little things did keep any infection at bay but they also destroyed all those valuable bacteria in my innards that keep my digestion going well. I have been suffering from the runs from the day I started the antibiotics. UGH! I don't wish this on anyone. Thank goodness that I only have one left to take and then I'm done. Hopefully my good old bod will then let those good bacteria back into my system and my digestion will go back to normal.

Brown Rice, Brocoli, Carrots, Walnuts, Raisons ... oh my!

C. kindly made me a yummy lunch today that I am munching on right now. The title describes it. I'm drinking a new Crystal Geyser juice squeeze flavor called Pomegranate Lemonade. It is tasty.

The new job is going well. I have been doing lots of reading about satellites and the particular satellite software I will be working on. At the end of today I hit my 2 week mark at Space Systems / Loral. I got my first pay check for last week today. They conveniently have a Wells Fargo bank machine in the main lobby of SS/L so I was able to deposit the check here at work. In the future direct deposit will kick in and I won't have to worry about depositing my check in the bank.

Besides new work the other thing that has been going on lately is visiting the dentist. I got a temporary crown on my tooth about a week and a half ago. The tooth was painful so this past Wednesday I went in to have it looked at. The dentist put a different type of temporary crown on the tooth (acrylic instead of metallic). If the pain doesn't go away in a few days, it looks like that tooth is destined for a root canal. Ug. If so ... it will be my first root canal. So far the pain has not gone away and this is day two. I'm supposed to get the permanent crown on the tooth on Monday but it is looking like I may get a root canal that day instead. I have been popping Advil the past week and a half when the tooth gets painful and happily about 15 mintues after a couple of Advil, the pain is gone. Advil is my friend.

I took my first ever Yoga class last Tuesday. The class is at the Mountain View California Yoga Center. I enjoyed the class (level 1 class) and like the instructor, Lisa, and will give the class another try next Tuesday. I decided to give Yoga a try as I want to be better connected to my body, become more flexible, and learn to deal better with stress. Yoga seemed to be a perfect choice to help me with these things.

Wen tagged me - Fivers

OK ... Wen tagged me to give this a shot ... I'm game.

1. Five favorite days of the year

1. Christmas
2. Thanksgiving
3. My birthday
4. Labor day - because that usually means a camping trip!
5. Memorial day - again sometimes means a camping trip!

2. Five things you watched this week

1. The Soprano's season 3 on DVD
2. Export Control training (truly boring)
3. The Yoga instructor, Lisa, at California Yoga in Mtn. View
4. The latest Harry Potter movie
5. DVD about ants and termites (more interesting than it sounds)

3. Five things you don't want to do, but should

1. Eat more fruits and vegetables
2. Desist eating McDonalds french fries
3. Revaluate my investment choices in my 401K
4. Read preliminary design documents
5. Get my toe fungus checked out by a doctor

4. Five things you want to learn

1. JAVA
2. Yoga
3. How to play the piano
4. How satellites work
5. How to put the brakes on while going backwards on roller blades

5. Five animals you've had as pets or who have impacted you

1. Georgie Girl and Timothy, two family cats we had while growing up in Columbus, OH
2. Barney, my first pet I was responsible for, sadly I did a less than perfect job and Barney escaped, got in the furnace duct some how and died.
3. Sappho & Sascha, two python snakes that my partner had when I met her.
4. Kalamozoo, and Punzel, my brother's cats that I loved to visit and cuddle with
5. Cosmo & Astro, our dogs that impact our lives everyday

6. Five favorite pieces of clothing

1. Aslo Hiking boots
2. New 40-50 SPF sunproof long sleeve shirts
3. Stanford Blood bank t-shirt
4. Brown shorts with lots of pockets
5. Blue REI fleece vest

7. Five things you enjoy in the summer

1. the longer amounts of day light
2. warm sunny weather
3. vacations
4. hiking
5. camping

8. Five foods you don't like

1. beans
2. jalepeno peppers
3. humus
4. mushrooms
5. lentils

9. You are given $50,000 to pass out to 5 people in $10,000 cash gifts. Who do you give it to, and why

1. Charlotte, my sweetie, so she can increase her cash reserves.
2. David, my brother, so he and his wife can decrease their debt or start saving for my nephews' education
3. Bob, my brother, to help cover the cost of my nieces' education
4. Cecily, my sister, to help cover the cost of my nieces' education
5. My parents, just to thank them for all the financial support they have given me over my life.
   

10. Five things that are not where they belong

1. The key to my safety deposit box
2. My passport
3. At the moment my eye glasses (they are not on my face)
4. A stack of papers on my desk at home
5. Perhaps my dog, Cosmo (he has a knack at going where he does not belong
   

Five, Ten or Fifteen People you want to complete this:

1. no one
2. no one
3. no one
4. no one
5. no one

I got a job!

Hurray! I got a job. Space Systems Loral offered me a job this week and I accepted. I start on July 16th. My current job ends on June 29th. So I have a blissful two weeks off with no major worries. I need a vacation so this is great.

C. and I will visit Kings Canyon National Park the weekend after my NGC job ends. After we get back we are toying with the idea of a road trip up the northern California coast with the dogs. We haven't done a major trip with the dogs yet but I think it will be fun and educational. We may rent a car big enough to put the dog's kennels in so they can be safe and have more room than the tiny kennels we have in the Prius.

Month of Interviews

This has been the month of interviews. I had 5 last week. One on Wednesday with Lockheed Martin. One on Wednesday with BAE. One on Thursday with Quark. Three on Friday with Lockheed Martin. Quark is pursuing other candidates or in other words Quark is not interested in me. I don't want the job at BAE and I think the chances are slim they would offer it to me. I was just not a good match for the job. I'm still waiting to hear from Lockheed Martin. I felt good about three of the Lockheed interviews and luke warm about one.

I am also still waiting to here from Loral Space Systems since my interview with them on May 16th. I would really like to work there but the longer I don't hear the more I feel like they won't be making a job offer.

I am very tired of interviewing and job searching. I just fervently hope each day to get a job offer. I worry more and more when I don't get any offers. Sigh.

The diet I had hoped to be in the midst of has rather plateaued. I seem to be hovering around 180 lbs. Oh well at least I'm not 186 anymore. I'm hoping once I get a new job lined up I'll have more time and motivation to do the "diet" right (eat healthy, exercise more, no more I feel bummed junk food snacks).

The camping trip to Kings Canyon in July will be a nice break even though I am the campout leader for Loma Prieta GLS. It will be nice to be out in nature with C., get a break from work, and get a break from the dogs.